Yes, from the title of this blog, you know what I'm talking about. Confusion. Everyone gets confused along the way on the path of life. What am I doing with my life? Is this the path that I need to take? Is this all I can do, or is there more to life than this 9am-5pm job? I'm pretty sure we've all had our fair share of these kinds of thoughts. Whether what we're doing in life is worth it, or figuring out what our lives are, or even finding ways to just get by with life.

I've done my fair share in these complicated, yet meaningful questions. Contemplating what I should do with life, why I'm stuck in this limbo after post undergraduate life. What am I doing, and is this really worth it?

I know I should not confidently say I have figure out my life and say that I can give my best advice to those who are still trying to figure out their path in life because I am still trying to figure out life. Still trying to figure out the career path I should take. I know I can almost feel that I'm almost reaching my answer to these questions about my career path, but I'm always self-doubting and worrying if I am making the right decision that will make me happy for the rest of my life.

No one wants to be stuck wondering what to do, what career path to take, and what will make me happy for the rest of my life. But I think it is healthy to step back and assess the situation, and think thoroughly and deeply about life's most challenging decisions.

What advice I can give you is that to never lose hope and never give up. I'm still going through this path of self-discovery, and I know many of you guys out there are. I'm struggling to see the light at the end of the tunnel, and I'm struggling to look on the positive, bright side.

But I know that worrying will not change anything, so you should not too. I've always been constantly worrying about life that I forget to be grateful for this opportunity to be able to actually think for my happiness, while there are others who are struggling to make ends meet and end up with a career or job they don't want to do.

What I'm trying to say is that do not let self-doubt and confusion kick in. Kick out those negative thoughts and focus on yourself and positive thinking. Look toward your bright future and do not dwell on the past. Yes, the past helps you with the future, but don't keep dwelling in the past too long because life keeps going forward in time, not backwards.

Learn from those lessons from the past and improve yourself to shape your future.

Until next time,

Yes, there's always someone who manages to push those buttons that shouldn't be punched and destroy my mood for the rest of the day. I'm not trying to be Negative Nancy, but I really just want to vent it out. There are I times I know I'm truly at fault for what I did, but really, people have to keep adding to the flames. Adding fire to fire. Adding oil to the fire, but is it that necessary to prove your point? I already said sorry, and I truly meant it, but you have to keep adding on and on how I was in the wrong, how my judgment is wrong, how everything, from myself to the situation, is literally wrong. Is that really necessary? Will it make you feel any better? I already did my part and tried to make amends, but do you need to do that?

I know we are supposed to treat others the way you want to be treated, and that is my uttermost priority. Sure, I did screw it up, I admit. And I did think my judgment of the situation is correct, and I should have treated the person better. I did try to make amends. And yes, there have been times people point it out that I was at fault, but does adding your opinion over and over and keeping adding to the problem really essential? To help justify your way is correct ALL the time? 

I'm sorry for what I did, and I truly am. But telling me to have a good rest of my day after that incident will make me any better? It already destroyed my mood to have "a good rest of my day". Why? I kept questioning where it all went wrong, what happened. I kept questioning myself too and how I know I was truly at fault. And I take the blame for that. But to add on to have a good rest of my day? That just contradicts what happens after. It made my day crappy. It made my mood crappy (I was going to use another word, but this will suffice). And I'm supposed to be happy and positive, but you throw this on me?

Lastly, I promise the next post will be positive. I just needed a medium to vent. I know I should be encouraging, but from this post, I just want to let you know, if these kinds of situations did happen, I'm here for you. I went through it, and we can go through it together. Every step of the way.

Hey guys! I'm introducing another new section of my blog! As stated in the title, this section of my blog will be dedicated to all my random thoughts about life, relationships, and friendships. 

I chose this as inspired by all my conversations with friends and a few bloggers that sparked my interest in writing my thoughts, so I was thinking, yeah I should put in my two cents here and there. 

Through this, I want to bring hope to people who are dealing with problems in life. Bring encouragement for those who need it. Or bring inspiration or enlightenment for those looking for it. 

I hope to reach everyone through what I want to say from my ramblings to my deep thoughts I haven't released that are ready to blossom. Yes, I know it sounds cheesy, but I hope I become a voice that empowers people. A voice that resonates the inner thoughts that we all have. And most importantly, a voice that motivates, inspires, and brings people to find that inner happiness that wants to shine.

Thank you all for taking your time to reading this, and stay updated for future thought posts.

Until then,

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Hey guys! I'm back again with part 2 of my Singapore trip! I will do the same thing again by highlighting the places, the food, and the sites that stood out the most. So let's jump right into it!

Our next destination was to see the Merlion! I've seen many pictures of the Merlion where people took those cliché drinking poses, and I know this has to be a must go!

See how gorgeous the view is?

Gardens by the Bay

                  

  

Cheng tng and Iced Bubur Cha cha

  

The Singaporean chili crab was by far the most delicious dish I have ever tasted! The blend of thick sweet and spicy sauce that also had that egg drop/corn starch consistency was so satisfying in every bite. The mantou is also dipped into that special blended sauce, and it was beyond describable. Everyone traveling to Singapore must try this! No joke. The black pepper crab was also delightful especially since I'm not a huge fan of overly peppering my dishes. It was a bit more on the dry sauce side, but hey, not complaining! This was also good in every bite. Overall, this was such a satisfying meal despite the priciness of it. The sauce to crab proportion was on point, and the ambience was great as well!

Day to night at Clarke Quay

First stop of the day was Chinatown! I've heard so many things about Chinatown from cheap Hawker Center food to decently priced shopping, so this was an it place to go! The first thing we did was wander the streets in Chinatown before we made it to the Hawker Center that contains the ONLY Hawker food stall that has a Michelin star.

First thing we saw when we arrived at the food stall was a 10-15 people wait line. The wait was actually not too bad. I heard the wait could even be 1- 1 1/2 hours wait! Luckily, we arrived early and had to wait only 30 minutes. To actually get the food was pretty fast because the meat was already cut by 2-3 kitchen staff. I think the wait was 30 minutes just because the people in line before us were maybe indecisive or asking too many questions. But anyway, moving along to the food!

I can't believe one plate of chicken rice costed only $2. It was such a guilt-free and delicious meal! The chicken was marinated with their special soy sauce that was pretty different from your regular soy sauce. It had this nice blend of sweet and salty taste that was in my opinion really tasty! Everyone must try this when going to Singapore. A Michelin Star Hawker stall and reasonable prices that don't burn a hole in your wallet. What more is not to love?

Chinatown

After shopping at Chinatown and feeding ourselves a round of coconut, es chendol, and cheng tng desserts, we headed over to Orchard Road for shopping and the infamous ice cream sandwich. 

The ice cream sandwich was so good too! The durian ice cream was my favorite. It had a perfect balance of bitter and sweet to the ice cream. The taro ice cream was too milky and artificially-flavored. So what I recommend is the durian ice cream for all those durian lovers like me!

In Orchard Road, there were many shopping centers, but the ones that I would recommend is Ion and Takashimaya. Ion has plenty of restaurants and shopping, that makes it a one-stop shopping center. Takashimaya, which is one of the department stores, impressed me with the food level. There were plenty of desserts, food, and drinks for all those foodies like me! The most noted one I found was the durian pancake. It was literally to die for! We found food courts at the food level as well, but the prices did not beat the ones at the Hawker centers. You will definitely find the same kinds of foods at Takashimaya at Hawker centers, so definitely go to Hawker centers.

The next places we went to were Bugis Street and Geylang. Bugis Street was also another Hawker center with quite a good amount of local shops selling clothes, jewelry, handbags, and accessories. Bugis Street was also known for their Hawker food, but we were too full to eat anymore, so the only one we ate was the dragon's breath candy. It was okay for the first few bites, but the sweetness was too overpowering that it became too sweet. The nitrogen-infused candy did not last until the end because there was no more steam coming out. Overall, this was only good for a one time trial.